Although I’ve had horrible life experiences I’ve learned to forgive. My reading of some bible verses on forgiveness helped me with the tug’O’war in my mind.
14 For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
15 But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
I had reached the point of feeling that anger had take over my personality. It consumed me and hardened my heart. The bubbly; carefree spirit part of me slowly dwindled away. I had become apart of my shadow; just dark and trailing behind. I felt the prickly heat in my ears from being upset one day, and it made me realize I have to make a conscience decision to forgive and let go before my anger gave me a stroke or even worse a heart attack.
My health isn’t great and I’m not planning on having any heart issues. I am compelled to take care of me, and the first task I needed to tend to was all the traumatic events that brought on of my anger. I needed to forgive any wrong doings against me. Forgive and let go of the hurt, the pain, and all of the negative memories. Holding onto these negative emotions and thoughts was really weighing on me. Stress shows in the body in many forms. Whether it be as simple as a headache, or as fatal as an aneurysm.
Praying and talking to God about how to just let go was and still is difficult for me. How do I, me, myself forgive others and ask for forgiveness? I know I must put it behind me and move on. One cannot just travel back in time to erase the past. So; that means I should move forward everyday. Each new day is a reset button of life. God gave us a gift of the present; therefore I should make gratifying use of it.
With my progressing age I’m becoming less of a hot head about and in different aspects of my life. Some situations call for a bit of finesse. With forgiveness you need a just touch to let go. Some won’t ever get the ah-ha moment, or the lightbulb going off in their head to understand where I’m coming from. Just ask yourself what would Jesus do?